I feel so trapped inside my skin,
You’ve kicked me down and filled me with sin.
I want to change, but I can’t let go.
You’ve carved my heart, into nothing but stone. 

no I am not.

After one night in hospital

and being told I have chest problems and because of this i need to avoid stress at 19 I’ve had a real shock to the system. 

I always say I should give less of a fuck, but in reality I was actually tearing myself to the ground. I’ve never been so scared sitting in hospital and getting told I could have a blood clot or a stroke.

I’m so young and didn’t  realize how much pressure I put on myself to please everyone to the point where I made myself ill. I’m done with worrying about the small things when there is so much more to really think about. 

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samarawithyou:

lovewithalightsaber:

The last one is golden.

can’t even breathe

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I hate when you

know someone is lying, but they dont know you know. 

I used to want this thing forever, y’all can have it back.

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I’m holding out for a saving grace…

to show me the error of my ways
I really need a change
Cause I’m not a pessimist but sometimes hope is missed or missing
I haven’t felt so fucking drained, I need a break.

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Library Rambles.

I’ve found myself in the Library for yet another full day this week.

Anyway, went on FB for a wee peak and a break. I see yorkshire puddings and beans! What do I want now? The above. Can I have them? Nope cause I’m stuck in here until 5! 

However, enough of my food cravings I have spent 3 hours trying to find the perfect journal article for my introduction of my lab report. After ages of scrolling and pulling my hair out I now have completed my 1000 word intro. This being said I turned to what I thought was the back of the module guide to tick off what I had set out for the day and discovered another page. A page of what you ask? A PAGE FULL OF FUCKING JOURNAL ARTICLES RELATING TO MY EXACT REPORT.

So now, I’m having a break, going to get a coffee and enjoy a squares bar.

Oh yeah…

AND CRY!